I went to a new Naturopath this week.

Mainly my allergies drove me to go, but the intake form asks you to list all your issues, so I couldn’t avoid writing “weight.” This ND is a weight loss specialist also. Dr. Samantha Mathers, ND, seems a little doogy-howser-young, but that’s only because I feel old at the moment. She seems like she has her business dialed in with a definite online presence.
I had a lot of trouble finding her office because she had changed suites in the bldg. and when googled her old ste. came up. There was no index on the main floor either. I finally figured it out, because a) I had left very early, and b) my own office is catty-corner, so I went back to my computer to search, rather than only using my iphone. Still, it irritated me.
Anyway, I’m on a 2 week eliminaton diet. Luckily, I decided to combine it with the structure of a 12 step food plan. This is what is familiar to me. The only successful weight loss I’ve ever had before came from OA or CEA-HOW, or FAA. This involves having a set quantity and type of food for each meal and snack. While the ND said foods to eliminate, she said some foods were unlimited, like veggies. Weight Watchers does that. I think it’s too slippery for a compulsive eater, but hey…
She also gave me a product (EHB) that will kill off the excess antibodies caused by severe allergies. And I’m back on an adrenal support.
The worst part of it is realizing where my starting weight is. I have gained 55 lbs. since getting married. I can’t tell you how devastating that is. Here’s why:
- I told Greg that his addiction isn’t visible. When I overeat, I get fat, and people notice. Whether people are conscious of it or not, we are a very size-ist society. I know I am, and of course, I realize that is influenced by my own eating disorder. (It isn’t so much that I meet criteria for an eating disorder, I have disordered eating and disordered thinking/feeling about it).
- My top weight ever was in my first marriage, and I am only 12 pounds from it. How did this happen? I think I dissociate from my weight, meaning I just don’t track where it is and when it is creeping up.
- I gained about 10 lbs. in the last month or so, going off Cymbalta, and turning to food as medication.
- The other 4/5th of the weight I’ve gained has been due to Greg being a chef and providing too much for my food, even healthy food. In part, this is due also to becoming vegetarian. This is a big argument we have, but the ND agreed that soy is not great for everyone and it does contribute to estrogen dominance.
- Mostly weight gain is a sign of depression for me. I know that my weight has also gone up since my brother’s suicide.
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